Thanks to you Monsanto,
I have to watch the woman I love
My first, and only love..
Howl in pain everytime she lays down.
Watch the taint stretch tendrils into every moment of joy we share,
behind her eyes, the beautiful jewels, an ever present hurt.
Even when she smiles, she is in pain..
Even when she laughs, she is in pain..
Even when she cries, she is in pain..
Even when we make love, she is in pain..
Even when she sleeps, she is in pain..
However, we will not let it win.
Thanks to Monsanto we cannot have a child,
This isn’t true, we can have a child..
There are thousands of children awaiting adoption.
We can give them the love they deserve.
Monsanto cannot win.
We can’t have a single day without the lurking beast of agony,
So we try and keep him occupied, though he never goes away..
We fight every day, and every day makes us stronger.
Every day brings us closer.
It is not easy having to watch my love tremble and whimper
just trying to relax into a sleeping position.
It is not easy having to watch as she half-wakes during the night
Even while sleeping, she moans in pain, “Oww.. no.. no.. I hurt…”
Then all falls silent again, all the while I hug her, it is all I can do.
All I can do is offer myself completely, and hope it is enough.
All I can do is be there by her side..
In the morning, there are some days when I am afraid to wake her up,
for while she slumbers, she is quiet.. but I know when I wake her
She will begin the torture of coming back to consciousness.
Awaiting the cries that rip through the air.
I get the pills ready and a glass of water
I take a deep breath and wake her
Every day
The pills do not make it go away.. they make it less
pervasive so, it doesn’t bring tears to her eyes when she moves
I am sorry I cannot do any more than give everything I have..
I will love you forever
Thank you for showing me love
Together we will fight this, together we stand strong
Nothing they can do will take us apart!
We are the lucky ones.. a lot of people have it worse
We are grateful for life, and love, and share it freely
Dedicated To Q.
© Alexi Warrington
Children Of Vietnam Veterans Health Alliance
